Hello dear ones,

As time goes by it seems this blog has once again become silent, not because I haven't thought about it but really because I have been writing in my personal journal. Private thoughts. Yet here we are at the end of May, summer is starting and I think it's okay for me to share a bit of my journey with you all.

Covid-19 became a pandemic is early March and life turned itself upside down. I  have continued working through this time and have definitely had my ups and downs. Initially the fear of covid/the unknown for me was quite overwhelming. Mr P was away, I was home alone, isolated from family and friends, just like you. Yet as a healthcare worker, I was still going to go to work feeling a little lost and let's be honest, I was downright scared, petrified, freaked the f* out. Some days it was all I could do to get up and get my sorry butt to work. Looking back, I see that there were lots of things that played into my discombobulation. Daily changes at work, lack of information at times, lack of sleep, stress to name a few. Mr P was laid off and came home after months of being away and life shifted again. I had a rock in the midst of crazy waves of chaos. I clung on tight and he helped me navigate. I hadn't seen the kids or grandkids in months, except for a few visits through the window at their house, facetime, and a few phone calls. Everyone was doing what they needed to do too to keep themselves safe, sane and still living life.  And that is perfectly okay even if it didn't feel okay.

We are all still just doing our best to live our best life. In fact, in some ways life is better. It's certainly given me an opportunity to look at the life I am leading and what I want to do differently. I feel softer, yet stronger if that makes sense.

And it was interesting to see how other people handled their stress and managed their lives as well. What comes to my mind most often is how we all handle stress, chaos, fear in totally different ways.We all are just different and that's okay, no judgement. We have to find ways to feel safe and loved and we need to be kind. The world has been turned upside down now and we don't know what it will look like when we come out the other side. I really hope we can find a way to be kinder, be respectful of others, to appreciate what we have, who we share our lives with, and to LIVE OUR BEST LIFE. 

If you have taken then time to read all this, thank you for listening.